Tyberius Rage
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Posted - 2011.04.20 21:38:00 -
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I ask myself this question all the time.
There are many negative aspects of EvE that I greatly dislike. First and foremost is much of the negativity that is displayed between people. Quite frankly many people treat one another with disdain and disrespect without regards for the impact one causes on another. This game breeds a culture of hate through war that is really unhealthy psychologically. Second I dislike much of the cheating that takes place within the game itself. Whether it comes from RMT, Botting, Stealing, or Scamming. There seems to be a culture that goes along the lines of, "Well it has happened to me, so I cam going to do it to someone else. - As if two wrongs make a right. Instead it creates a vicious cycle that continues to breed within the game, and carry's outside the game as well. I am a firm believer that people think that because you can not see the person face to face that it is OK to treat one with little regard to how ones actions affect another. It is a rather sad picture of how corrupt humanity is, and EvE generally feels. I don't feel it is all in good fun. Because I have personally been a part of factions that spew such behavior, and quite frankly it is disheartening. So if I had to close this rant, I would like it like this, "Can't we all just get along?" Seriously, yes, it is just a bunch of pixels, but the people staring at the pixels are real and what each of us does truly affect one another. I personally don't hold any hope that this will change. All I can do is be as honorable as I can be, and hopes that people will treat me the same. The last thing I hate is how EvE feels like I am wishing my life away. I think it comes with the way you develop your character - in REAL TIME. It's kind of like watching your child grow up (I have 3). While it happens the time goes by slowly, but one day you look back and your kid is 18 and you wonder, where in the hell did time (and my life) go. I started playing EvE when i was 32, and now I'm 37 - I don't know where the last 5 years of my life went. I really don't even have anything to show for it as I don't even have the same character I started with. This makes it even even worse. Depressing.
Now, I love EvE because it is massive, beautiful, and exhilarating to play. EvE is a game that is 98% of the time passive, and 2% of the time aggressive. That aggression brings out such an adrenalin rush that after your nerves calm, you rush around looking for a way to get that feeling again. It is like a doped out person looking for his next high. This can't be healthy on the nervous system. I also love dreaming about the future, and what it would be like to live in space and fly around in space ships. It makes me sad to know that I live in this time, and will never see what will become. I guess playing EvE fills my sci-fi fantasy. I enjoy it greatly. I love EvE because it is quiet, and alot of times I can collect my thoughts and meditate on the plethora of things that go through my mind. I love EvE because it is played by other adults, and so I don't always feel like such an immature kid because I still love to play video games. But I mostly love EvE because I get to be a part of something outside of the real world that I don't really get to be a part of outside the game. That is a community of nerdy computer geeks who relate to me, and whom I relate with as well.
Anyway, now that I written this lame ass book, all I can be grateful for now is that I wrote it on an alt nobody knows. 
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